hi , tony ,

i've never felt so sad as I am now when i say "how are you " to you !

how are you , buddy ? and how is your life in the heaven ?

i miss you and we at Hiknow all  miss you ! buddy !

even now i still couldn't believe that you are no longer with us ! your smile is still so vivid and your laugh is still ringing in my ears !

i am sorry that i was not there when you were going through all the troubles by yourself , life is hard and that is why we need friends and family , and i wish i had made you understand that i am always happy to be your friend and you can count on me when you are in troubles.

i am 10 years older than you , so you and Danny , you guys are like younger brothers to me . and that makes me even sadder when i think about you.  you are so young , tony , you are so young , you are only 24 years old, your life has just get started for you , and of course life is not always roses all the way , but , damn it , tony , your life just beings ! there is so much that you can become of with your life !

i'm not gonna blame you , tony , i am not !    To give up one's life is NEVER an easy decision , and i just wanna say i am sorry that i wasn't there to help you out  when you cast about desperately for help from friends and family ! if only i knew you were in so much pain ! tony !

never gonna forget how warm your smile is when we went to An Ji for team-building in April  , you big sunshine boy , tony !

i'm gonna stop writing now , tony , cause tears are already in my eyes now and they are getting misty .  may peace be with you , buddy !  may you find what you want in the heaven !

miss you and love you  

your co-worker and elder brother

robin